i miss you
i miss you, i miss how we used to be. i miss the friendship we had. i don’t want to have to admit it’s over. i don’t want to have to just live off the memories we shared. i want to us to be as we were and i know I just have to grow up and realise change is going to happen and there’s nothing i can do about it. i know when you told us you told us about him things were going to change and i know i should’ve prepared myself for the fact that you would drift, the only reason i didn’t was because i thought our friendship was strong enough to with hold a new relationship and nothing would really change but i was really wrong. i was really wrong. everything has changed your distant and i don’t think you realise how much it hurts to not be close to you, to not be best friends because as my much as I don’t want to admit it we aren’t anymore, it’s awkward between us and I don’t know what to do. i feel like i can’t do anything to try and get back to where we used to be. i’m scared the broken friendship we now have is going to stay that way forever and that terrifies me because I love you like a sister but i know i’ve tried i know i have tried really hard to get back to where we were but i don’t feel like you are that bothered anymore it’s like you got him and forgot about me. I’m trying, trying to save our deteriorating friendship but still you aren’t really that bothered i don’t know what to do anymore i miss you even when your there and it never really feels like you are even if your standing right in front of me. i don’t know i just had to write this I’m sick of being the only one who’s bothered about us drifting and not being best friends, I used to not be able to think of a future where we’re not friends but now it’s getting harder to think of one where we are, it’s been months now since we’ve been the same and I don’t know how much longer I can go on with this. I just had to put all my emotions down and get it all out. I miss you…
This was a text message i wrote to my bestfriend a few days ago… but I never hit send. I was too scared of the outcome and what she would say but I knew I wanted to share it and maybe get or share some advice, so if you’ve been through something like this with your besfriend please leave me some advice I don’t know what more I can do, I don’t want to loose the friendship but it’s a two way thing. Anyway any help would be appreciated – stereotypicalxteen
Stereotypicalxteen 